surviving the refining of fire to emerge as i was always meant to be.

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NE side of life, out in the country,, where the 4 seasons bring me to my knees, United States
standing still: to know God. to know the truth of my worth. to acknowledge self and others as unique and significant. to find and fulfill my purpose. to be ok with just being myself.

Sunday, December 28, 2008

day 8 and beyond....

holiday cheer with my 4 dtrs and 2 sil's. such good times and many wonderful memories!
what a blessing!

peace to all
~coral

Tuesday, December 23, 2008

seven swans a swimming, uh hmmmm, i mean day seven *<((:O)

shopping with my bestest friend... need i say more????

*<((:OD

Monday, December 22, 2008

sixth day one way, half a dozen the other


today it was a bit harder to find a possitive thing to be happy about... and this proves to me that i am indeed too spoiled... as i went shopping and filled 6 stockings to over flow, and bought several very nice gifts for my 'kids' on my list.... and yet... i was bummed out by the trafic and crowds and the demenor of most ppl i met... i wore my bowler hat and smiled and listened to holiday music and drank hot capaccino.... i shoulda' been so mellow and feeling so very blessed and i did donate to cherities every where there was opportunity.... *sigh*


but i was trying and for that i do give myself a star... not a gold one... but maybe a teal one and sooo the trying makes me happy to report....


i get to see my youngest dtr and sil on wednesday, that makes me happy


and i am spending a happy day shopping and maybe going to a movie and especially giving her the presents i made for her!!! that makes me woot! :OD i'll take a picture and show you what i made... i am soooo proud of it! she will l o v e it!!!! can't wait!!!!!!!!!!


ok so NOW i am happy! hehe ;O)


ttyt... that makes me happy, too!

Sunday, December 21, 2008




day four and five

i forgot to finish my blog entry yesterday... so now i am making up for it today :O)

saturday i was happy about finishing the footies i made for my dtr... they are cute and warm and just what she will like to get from dear ol' mom! woot!

and today i was happy wearing my poinsettia decorated bowler hat while watching muppet christmas carol with three extra members of my family (2dtrs and a sil)

getting closer to feeling the spirit of the holidays, which for some reason is eluding me this year....

hohoho! *<((:O)

Friday, December 19, 2008

day III of what makes me happy

i spent time with a friend of mine today. she and i did a little shopping and a lot of waiting at a dr's office... all of it was pleasant time. it always is.... when i spend time with her. i am very blessed to have a friend like her and to be a friend to her makes me very happy!

you have a friend like that? if so treasure her.... if not.... i wish one for you.

lovingly,
coral

day 2 :O)

what makes me happy today: many things made me happy today so a list is in order!

out door, blow up, lighted snowman who is decorating my front window with big old fasioned bulbs [:>) ooo )

little things bought at tonight's auction that will certainly make my friend smile!

setting up my silver tree

holiday cookies

spending time with my friend

sweet dreams

feeling better (mood wise)

my husband treating me well

a new friend :O) hi kim!

a comment from a person i know from another site

*sigh*

talk of my kiln being hooked up to electricity soon... woot!

hope you all had such a pleasant day!

lovingly
~coral

Wednesday, December 17, 2008

the eight day challenge

well, i was challenged by http://midwestmusings-kim.blogspot.com/ to post something that makes me happy for the next eight days :O) ok... so.... i am saying that this challenge is making me happy... mostly b/c someone made a good/kindhearted challenge that i happened upon thru the post i noted (re gifts) in my last post... and now i have been enriched with the links that those who gave gifts left behind...

been checking the kind ppl's blogs out and feel so very much more welcome on this planet somehow... more at ease... like the good in ppl comes out when you aren't really expecting it... or even sure it exsists any longer..

so this assignment, of sorts, is making me happy :O) thanks, kim, for giving me a good reason to smile for the next 7 days

~coral

and BTW... you read this so your tagged, too! :OD

Friday, December 12, 2008

who's doing the molding of me?


i have very much enjoyed getting into pottery again.... was really into art as a teen and young adult... but soon after marriage, 4 kids... life.... i lost the ability to ask, (did i say ask?.... oh, so there's the problem!, 'allow for' would be better said)... for time for art... i lost a HUGE part of myself when that happened! too , i didn't want my wounds open, and art brings wounds to the surface post haste in my personality... so i also let go of art to protect, to remain in that needed survival mode. (needed to raise healthy children, and need to survive the years i referenced previously)


well, now i have opened that part of me.... it is like a great big surprise package, one that was lying unnoticed in a corner of my existence waiting for the day i would return, dust it off and open it. like Pandora's box it came with over sized things springing forth that i had to deal with and tame, but mostly it came to make peace with me, myself and i... and am i glad!


so back to pottery... i love, love, love it :OD hand building with raw clay is my thing... i just do it... thoughts come forth and i build them into 3-d objects. and then... when i figured out something very big in my journey...


let me emphasize this, kind reader... uh huh, to myself... the fact came to me that i, even as an abused child, i was being held in the palm of His hand... oh yes, it made me full of multiple feelings, that knowing did.... i was angry.... furiously! i was confused... but i was also full to the brim with peace and love and the knowing of His Love of myself as a child, i never even accepted it was there looking back to then...


so i set out to create this knowing in my art, i made a wonderful sketch of me as a young child curled up in my bed, and my blankets and pillow were all parts of my security melding into a loving mother, a large bear, and a hand, not any hand, God's own. i felt a release having it down in pencil where others could look and study and come to know what i feel and know about my own self comforting and the shield of my pain was the loving Father. what a beautiful expression i felt it was... though sketched and imperfect.


then i began making part of this image in clay... my first one was auctioned off for 150... i was shocked... but it was for charity... so that is why i told myself... then someone got in touch with me and asked me to make her a personal one for 125.... her highest bid on the first... wow.... no way to disregard the message being sent out by my work... it is touching ppl! and they want it for their own!!!.... i have since made seven more, several for gifts, and sold two, and am giving one to her, http://sorrow11.wordpress.com/ for her give-away (check her blog out... there are gifts involved!!!!!)


and yet i still have misgivings about how important this work is to ppl.... i have been told it is... i have been encouraged to start a business with them... and still i flinch. it's not that good.... it's not gonna last... no one really wants the pieces....


then.... then i think about what each piece has meant to me... i am different b/c of the pieces and the knowing that is expressed with each one... i am being reshaped by the work i am being led to do. so..... who's molding me? how and why is this changing me? and just what am i to do with all of this creative flow?


more questions.... so now there is need for more standing still and listening for answers....


shhhhhh.... be still my life.... wait..... and just maybe you'll hear Him speak.....